Fleeing Mediocrity

"The great tragedy of life is not that it ends so soon, but that we wait so long to begin it."

I'm pretty good at anything I try but I tend to dabble in so many things that I haven't really excelled in any one area up to this point. I love to be active, but cherish the downtime as well. Not too much annoys me more than those who think they're better than others. I hate being "the nice guy" but I can't change it...I know, I've tried. I love having pictures of things I've done and places I've been, but am faced with the dilemma of trying to choose between really experiencing the moment and only having the mental memories, or detaching myself from the activities enough to take the pictures to remember it by, but by doing so risking not experiencing the fullness of the adventure...if that makes any sense. I'm a people-pleaser, much to my dismay. I want to be an actor in Hollywood movies more than anything. I am continually trying to pare down my possessions and obligations so that I can attempt to live the life I've been given more fully.

I am constantly struggling with the idea that I should be somewhere else, doing something better in order to achieve some specific level of success that is currently unknown to me...and it drives me nuts.

Oscar Wilde said that if you know what you want to be, then you inevitably become it - that is your punishment, but if you never know, then you can be anything. There is a truth to that. We are not nouns, we are verbs. I am not a thing - an actor, a writer - I am a person who does things - I write, I act - and I never know what I am going to do next. I think you can be imprisoned if you think of yourself as a noun.

Stephen Fry

I like this. It’s a different way to think about “what” we are.

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The Visor, top of Half Dome with My Love, @abenyola #halfdome #yosemite #gopro #beautifulview (at Yosemite, CA)

The Visor, top of Half Dome with My Love, @abenyola #halfdome #yosemite #gopro #beautifulview (at Yosemite, CA)

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What does a man need, really need? A few pounds of food each day, heat and shelter, six feet to lie down in, and some form of working activity that will yield a sense of accomplishment. That’s all, in the material sense. And we know it.

But we are brainwashed by our economic system until we end up beneath a pyramid of time payments, mortgages, preposterous gadgetry, playthings that divert our attention from the sheer idiocy of the charade.

The years thunder by. The dreams of youth grow dim where they lie caked in dust on the shelves of patience. Before we know it, the tomb is sealed.

Where, then, lies the answer? In choice. Which shall it be: bankruptcy of purse or bankruptcy of life?

—Sterling Hayden, Wanderer

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Everybody keeps on repeating to himself: I am confident.
Why? What are you hiding? If this confidence that you talk about is really there then there is no need to say anything about it.
A really confident man is not even aware of it.
This has to be understood — whenever something is false you are aware of it, self-conscious.
When something is real, you simply forget it.
Do you remember that you are breathing? If something goes wrong, yes. If it is hard and there is something wrong with your lungs and you have a cold or asthma, then you remember that you are breathing.
But when everything goes okay, you are not conscious.
When you are really confident, confidence is forgotten.


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